Hello!
This was another
super fast week! It was a challenge at first, because the plans that we
made didn't work out, but of course, the Lord always provides, and it
ended up being one of the most successful weeks of the transfer, at
least in terms of reaching our goals.
Wednesday,
we were able to have exchanges with our kabahays. I was blessed to be
able to work with Sister Verdeflor (which was especially fun because I
was her replacement in Taytay, so we have lots of mutual friends there)!
We worked in their area, while Sister Faka'osi and Sister Tipasa worked
in our area. I was honestly having a really hard morning that day, not
feeling like a missionary, not feeling close to the Spirit, but as usual
I just pleaded for help from the Lord and pressed forward in faith and
it ended up being a great day! :) It was exactly what I needed. Working
with Sister Verdeflor helped me feel the Spirit so easily, and teaching
in their area was so fun and inspiring! The greatest blessing was that,
even though we had no ward missionaries working with us, we were able to
have members present at every lesson, which I know made a big
difference. I think I may have gotten more from exchanges than Sister
Verdeflor did; she is so kind and sweet and a wonderful missionary. It
was a comfort for me to open my eyes and see that I really am just one
small part of the big picture and that even though this is THE MOST
IMPORTANT WORK in the world, the success of it does not primarily rest
on ME (haha who knew humility is actually a stress-reliever? :P).
As
for me, I am doing well. I feel like I am starting my mission over,
with all the rollercoaster emotions I experienced while being trained. I
guess that is what all the talk about "12 weeks" is about. I really
don't feel trunky at all (though I guess I don't know what that feels
like to be able to judge). I just feel like I have always felt as a
missionary. I am just me, doing missionary work. :) It is a lot easier
now, of course, and I can recognize the Spirit working through me and
utilizing and amplifying my gifts and talents, but I still feel like
myself. Just a new and improved version. :) Little things are starting
to get to me though, and as much as I wish I could pause time, I am
realizing that it keeps moving forward and my deadline as a full-time
missionary is inevitable. They started announcing the Women's Broadcast
and General Conference in church yesterday (it is delayed a week for us
here, so thank you for no spoilers!), and I got super excited until I
remembered that I used to talk about how General Conference would be the
month before my release. I am honestly excited for continuing to do
missionary work in our home branch, but it is just really intimidating
that it is so soon, and every week goes faster and faster. :/ I feel
like I still have so much to learn and do before I am ready to attempt
all this without a name tag (all the cliches I have heard my whole
mission are seeming way more rational to me now). More than anything, I
am grateful that, through it all, I feel the calming presence of the
Spirit wash over me ever time I start to stress and I am reminded that
the Lord is in control. He has a plan, and He is in charge of this work.
I am just one small part, and when I am gone (or if I am transferred
next week) and don't get to see the harvest of the seeds we are planting
and nurturing now, all that really matters is that in the time I was
here I gave my all and did my best. :) Another wonderful sister, who has
been called and set apart by the same authority I was, will be here to
make sure the work keeps going. I just need to exercise my faith and
trust in the Lord.
In other exciting news: I
got to go to Immigration last week to be fingerprinted, because I guess
there was a problem with the visa renewal. No worries though, there are
like 50+ of us in the mission that had to go over a period of 3 or 4
days. It's all good now, and I WILL be allowed to leave the country to
come home daw. ;) We saw a lot of interesting people at the Immigration
place though, and I got to talk to a really cute Filipina who is moving
to San Diego to live with her American husband. :)
I
am super short on time now (SORRY THIS WEEK ISN'T VERY IMFORMATIVE), so
I just want to leave with one thought, from the chorus of "I am a child
of god":
Last night, we were walking to a last appointment
and of course there are no street lights so Sister Faka'osi was using
the flashlight on our phone to light the path. I was walking in front,
and quickly realized that it was actually making things worse because,
with the light behind me, my shadow was making it even harder to see
where I was walking. Suddenly, the chorus of hymn 301 came into my mind,
"lead me, guide me, WALK BESIDE ME, help me find the way." I realized
that that is exactly how it is with our mortal journey and our Heavenly
Help. We must allow Him to lead us. If we try to go ahead ("run faster
than [we have] strength") or do things our own way, His Light won't be
there to guide us and we will end up having a harder time of things. But
if we just put Him first, we can follow Him and be led safely to where
we need to go. :)
That is all for now. Sorry
again for the lack of content. More next week, promise! I love you all
and hope you have a great week!! You are in my prayers!!
Love always,
Sister Emma Franks
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